Why I like to be alone

Hello.
I am:
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and always number 2,

but you may or may not know me as Ashby Orgill. I grew up in a conservative family of ten, so as you can imagine, it was very hectic at times. I am the youngest out of my eight siblings so by the time my junior year of high school came around, I was the only one left at home with my withering, hearty parents. At the same time, I lost connection with all of my friends that I had at the time. I often found myself alone, wondering why. Eventually I learned more about being alone, and how to enjoy it.

Sometimes I will hop outside at midnight. Not to see a special someone or to wreak havoc on society, but to just walk. Nobody in sight. Not a car in sight. Mine the only heart beat in all directions. Step after step under the endless night sky which shines bright and happy, showing off its glory just for me. 

I sometimes walk through the close by forest with the long harsh shadows of the tall trees. Mine slips in with one and for a moment I disappear from sight. Even from the moon and the stars. Just me and the shadows, completely intertwined. 

Sometimes I'll lay in my room and blast music. Ignoring the buzzing of my phone, and the long to-do list laying heavily on my desk. I'll allow myself to be consumed by thought and the feelings only music can bring.

It is my time to have self contemplation, and to think in general. To feel in general. The days are generally filled with mind blocking tasks. One thing after another. Once in awhile, I just have to give myself a break. To give myself time to let something in. To let my fingers fall to the floor in complete relaxation. 

At times like these, I couldn't imagine sharing it with another beating heart. Being alone allows your mind to refresh and relax, and your body to settle back into its bones. When you are alone, you end up contemplating, and thinking about your life and the choices you are making. You start to remember who you want to be, and can recenter yourself onto the path you are meant to go down.

Of course, alone time is different than loneliness, which can carry some serious health risks such as depression. However, purposefully putting yourself in situations where you get time for yourself can be a great experience. At least for me, every time I find myself alone, I end up leaving feeling more happy and aware of myself. A great way to practice being alone is to drive. If you have a car, try jumping in it sometime and just start driving. There is no need to have a destination in mind. Just drive and listen to the songs that makes your skin crawl off, and your heart skip a beat. Try to picture every little memory you have, starting with your first. Imagine your life, let it flash before your eyes. As you do this, you will remember who you are and what you want. 

Being alone allows you to be more creative. I know that every time I paint or work on some form of art alone, it turns out much better than when I am around people and worrying about whether it's good enough. Additionally, when you are alone, you get to do what you really want to do. You don't have to worry about trying to come up with something that everyone will want to do. You can just go right out and do what you want. Something that I like to do when I am alone is read. I find reading out loud with other people can be quite aggravating, and the issue comes up again when you can't decide on a book that you both want to read. 

Alone time is a great way to clear your mind. When the storm clouds become too much, try just sitting and thinking. Think about every little thing in your life that is good, that brings you happiness, no matter how small. Notice it, and appreciate it. Think about what is aesthetic for you. Are you constantly surrounding yourself with your aesthetics? If not, what are you doing? Make your life beautiful.

The other day, I realized that I am living. That I'm alive, and that I'm in the prime of my life. I also realized that we are all just writing a story, and once we die we have this book. Mine is titled the life of Ashby Orgill, and every day I am writing a new chapter. I don't just want to be filling the pages. I want to experience life, and make it an adventure. That's why I allow myself to be alone sometimes. 

Rhetorical Notes:
Blogs are written for a broad audience. Anyone could potentially find a particular blog and start following it. In the case of my blog, I am writing because I want to inspire people, and to help them live a happier life. I want my words to be able to be accessed by anyone and everyone, anytime. That is why a blog would be best in my situation. For example, a series of Op-ed pieces may help get one of my messages out, but the reader would not be able to find my other ideas. A blog allows me to organize my different ideas so that they can be easily accessed.

I used pathos throughout my post by providing vivid imagery, and by specifically talking about different emotions. For example, I said, "Every time I find myself alone, I end up leaving feeling more happy and aware of myself". Later on in my post, I began to use logos more frequently. I would make a claim and then back it up with a reasonable explanation. For example, I said, "When you are alone, you get to do what you really want to do. You don't have to worry about trying to come up with something that everyone will want to do. You can just go right out and do what you want." Lastly, I used ethos at the beginning of my post when I talked about how I had a lot of experience with being alone. This gives me credibility, and helps the reader to trust the information I provided throughout the duration of the post.